a candy-colored clown they call the sandman tiptoes to my room every night...

the other day, last week, i started this post and didn't finish it. so now i'm adding on to it and all that jazz...

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i've been up since 3:30 am. this does not make me happy. i've been having problems sleeping lately and i do not know why. up until recently, i have NEVER had problems sleeping. in college, i used to go to bed with the bedroom door open, lights on, and music blaring and people would come into my room and sit on my bed and i would have no idea. the next morning, i would wake up from a restful night of sleep (except for the days when my roommate's alarm would go off and she would hit snooze SEVENTEEN times) and head to class. it was great. it's only been the last year or two that i have started to have trouble sleeping every now and then. lately, its more now than then. and i think i know why: its the damn alcohol. woah. haha. wait a minute. i didnt mean to imply that i'm an alcoholic or even drinking a lot. but last night i had 1.5 beers with dinner and then woke up at 3am and couldn't get back to sleep. i fell asleep just fine. 4 hours later - up. UP! all night. do you remember that on USA? b movies being shown late on friday and saturday nights? i remember the phrase "Up! all night" so i googled it and i vaguely remember rhonda shear, but none of these clips look familiar to me...



do you remember them?

i more remember watching elvira and thinking she was really cool. what channel was she on?


so not sleeping. that annoys me. so does not remembering what i want to remember. which makes me think that memories are so fickle. and changeable. but i digress.

back in the news again lately is health care. it should be obvious that i am for some sort of reform - i am no expert on the system, but i know that some things have to change. this article made me really sad and want to never ski for fear of having to get medical care outside of north dakota.

this also annoys me (more so than not sleeping). in case you don't want to read the article, it talks about how blue cross is raising their rates (despite earnings $2.7 billion in the last quarter of last year). i would like to have 1% of 1% of that. and to top it off, regulators in my current state of california have found 700 violations at blue cross. with a maximum penalty of $10,000 per violation, no wonder they have to raise rates! (sarcasm dripping from my pursed lips) you can closely examine wellpoint's earnings by reading this article.

all of this makes me ill and wish i were 10 again watching up! all night and not understanding why companies want to hurt people so badly.

[picked this song from roy orbison's "in dreams" because i am, funnily enough, not getting a lot sleep lately. the sandman does not tiptoe into my room at night. but, i guess thats ok. i have issues with people being in my room when i'm asleep...]